By using the word ‘afraid’, there’s no intention of recalling some old ghost folklores or talking of incidences which shook your instinct. At times, you may not be so as if you are now, you might be in a distress, dilemma that all of a sudden you turn so ‘cold’ just like some stone figure & think of ways so that you get away from the consciousness of others.
I too ponder at times that even if we say that where ever you count upon, a friend is to be at your side, so whom are we afraid of? Sometimes I do notice myself that even after being right on my part, doing nothing ‘fishy’, still then the ‘culprit in disguise’ rises within myself & makes me feel like ‘What sin I have committed? Let this task be kept away from the notice of all’. Maybe you have gone through the same guilt & might have lost faith upon yourself, just because you don’t want others to judge you as ‘wrong’.
It should be like ‘C’mon, give up that ‘unknown’ guilt & come up’ but instead we think whether it’s worth to be so open or whether I’m getting against those ‘stereotypic’ value that have been set up. Now rather I would regard myself as a ‘dumb’ that I’m not even open to my parents. But what to do? My reasoning says that I don’t want to put myself into ‘emotional dilemma’ afterwards & so think that a gap among views & thoughts should remain as an obstacle, at least making me more bold than I’m ought to be & here starts a series of uncertain mismatches within you.
Maybe I’m wrong, that’s what human nature is all about which still goes on continuing to fight a battle of pros & cons, but all you need to do is give up that ‘unknown’ filth & give yourself a chance to make a success come alive, maybe not in true sense, but about your satisfaction.
I too ponder at times that even if we say that where ever you count upon, a friend is to be at your side, so whom are we afraid of? Sometimes I do notice myself that even after being right on my part, doing nothing ‘fishy’, still then the ‘culprit in disguise’ rises within myself & makes me feel like ‘What sin I have committed? Let this task be kept away from the notice of all’. Maybe you have gone through the same guilt & might have lost faith upon yourself, just because you don’t want others to judge you as ‘wrong’.
It should be like ‘C’mon, give up that ‘unknown’ guilt & come up’ but instead we think whether it’s worth to be so open or whether I’m getting against those ‘stereotypic’ value that have been set up. Now rather I would regard myself as a ‘dumb’ that I’m not even open to my parents. But what to do? My reasoning says that I don’t want to put myself into ‘emotional dilemma’ afterwards & so think that a gap among views & thoughts should remain as an obstacle, at least making me more bold than I’m ought to be & here starts a series of uncertain mismatches within you.
Maybe I’m wrong, that’s what human nature is all about which still goes on continuing to fight a battle of pros & cons, but all you need to do is give up that ‘unknown’ filth & give yourself a chance to make a success come alive, maybe not in true sense, but about your satisfaction.
