Monday, April 14, 2014

What if you aren't able to defend yourself...???



There come many conditions in your daily life where you may not have any sort of interference in a certain event but you're the one who is put up as a culprit. At schools, you may ignore such things in friends but at times it may affect your social image. And also sometimes, that if you're found with a person who is disliked by a 'bunch' due to some mischief or uncertain activity ,  so others would make 'straight and simple' sense that the specific person is too involved or related to such things and see the irony, you can't even defend yourself.

Being straight to it, I want to say that today 'faith', 'believe' is a great matter, which may be as strong as 'concrete' or as simple as to burst a 'balloon'. It may be an earning of years and years, by the positive attitude of yours but it takes a minute to break that 'believe'. At times you may doubt yourself that weren't you able to develop even trust over you. Quite weird but seems like an event which takes place every day. One such incident took place with me when I was in 7th standard. I used to be given the charges of taking care of the home works every day. At such an age, it used to delight me a lot and continuously I worked hard on keeping this consistency. Mostly I used to take care of the subject social science, as the teacher used to appreciate my knowledge related to it. One fine day, I started suffering from neck stiffness during winters which used to give me a lot of pain, so much that I couldn't even keep my neck straight. But still I managed to attend the school but unfortunately I couldn't take my responsibility for that point of time. With support of one of the friend I managed to talk to my social science teacher about it, as I was a bit shy and nervous to face teachers that time.

And guess what, she started scolding me and questioned my ability to take responsibilities, without giving me a chance to at least tell her the reason, total disgust. From the very next day she started ignoring me, scolding me whenever I wanted to keep my views. But suddenly it even affected my result of cycle tests too. The thing went on for 2 months and fortunately we got a transfer till that time. So you may have got a clear cut idea that how your image may get spoiled within a minute, giving you no chance to speak even. My instinct was shocked by this event. Still I was well enough to tackle the condition by not giving any more stress to myself. Don't know whether it was because of some over expectations about me but let the reason be any, at times it used to hurt me a lot. From that event, I prepared myself how to answer others when you're being blamed and this made me accept that I'm an egoist, and I have no doubt on it. Today the condition is that I literally start debating, arguing over it and other person needs to stop me then. I don't think it’s bad to defend yourself when needed, don't think of what others will think but instead think of maintaining yourself respect, because somewhere an egoist like me is sitting inside you :-P The thing is never let the circumstances overcome your mind, as it might result in a condition which I faced. There’s lot more to share with you, till then stay tuned.

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