Being straight to it, I want to say that today 'faith',
'believe' is a great matter, which may be as strong as 'concrete' or as simple
as to burst a 'balloon'. It may be an earning of years and years, by the
positive attitude of yours but it takes a minute to break that 'believe'. At
times you may doubt yourself that weren't you able to develop even trust over
you. Quite weird but seems like an event which takes place every day. One such
incident took place with me when I was in 7th standard. I used to be given the
charges of taking care of the home works every day. At such an age, it used to
delight me a lot and continuously I worked hard on keeping this consistency.
Mostly I used to take care of the subject social science, as the teacher used
to appreciate my knowledge related to it. One fine day, I started suffering
from neck stiffness during winters which used to give me a lot of pain, so much
that I couldn't even keep my neck straight. But still I managed to attend the
school but unfortunately I couldn't take my responsibility for that point of
time. With support of one of the friend I managed to talk to my social science
teacher about it, as I was a bit shy and nervous to face teachers that time.
And guess what, she started scolding me and questioned my
ability to take responsibilities, without giving me a chance to at least tell
her the reason, total disgust. From the very next day she started ignoring me,
scolding me whenever I wanted to keep my views. But suddenly it even affected
my result of cycle tests too. The thing went on for 2 months and fortunately we
got a transfer till that time. So you may have got a clear cut idea that how
your image may get spoiled within a minute, giving you no chance to speak even.
My instinct was shocked by this event. Still I was well enough to tackle the
condition by not giving any more stress to myself. Don't know whether it was
because of some over expectations about me but let the reason be any, at times
it used to hurt me a lot. From that event, I prepared myself how to answer
others when you're being blamed and this made me accept that I'm an egoist, and
I have no doubt on it. Today the condition is that I literally start debating,
arguing over it and other person needs to stop me then. I don't think it’s bad
to defend yourself when needed, don't think of what others will think but
instead think of maintaining yourself respect, because somewhere an egoist like
me is sitting inside you :-P The thing is never let the circumstances overcome
your mind, as it might result in a condition which I faced. There’s lot more to
share with you, till then stay tuned.
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